What If

What if my life wasn't it's supposed to be?

Listening to "What If" by Jason Derulo isn't a bad thing after all. Although I do find it boring quite some time ago. Suddenly I got inspired by the lyrics. It's true that music inspires our life.

"What if?
What if I'm the one for you?
And you're the one for me?
What if..."

Have you all ever whispered 

"""""  What If"   into your brain before?

I do always.
I've always wondered 

What If my life wasn't 

what it is supposed to be?

What if I am not a girl?

What if I don't have a family?

What if I am born with imperfections?

What if I wasn't a Chinese?

What if I don't study?

What if I am a millionaire's daughter?

What if I am a singer?

What if I have long hair instead of short hair?

What if I am brave enough to speak out?

What if I remain silence?

What if I fight for my rights?

What if I wasn't even born to see this cruel life?

What if I am born with loads of illness?

What if I am not in Malaysia?

What if I don't choose this way?

What if I just be obedient?

What if I am loyal?

What if I cheated in exam?

What if I don't even go to school?

and the list goes on and on  .....

WHAT IF!

WHAT IF!

WHAT IF!

Will my life change 360 degrees?

Will my life be like this?

I have always doubt and complain not much of my life.

Perhaps I'm just too tired and sick of dramas.

How do they even put up with this type of life?

I know I should be grateful and thankful.

But...

what if my life changes?

Will I become a better person?

Will I become even worse than currently?

There's always a QUESTION MARK 

in my brain and heart 

that always question my thoughts and doings.

Songs are like my souls.

I know it's not any 

extraordinary thing to sing 

in the bathroom or anywhere.

To be frank, I can't live without music.

I enjoy music very much to my heart's content.

Whatever song that I've listened, 

I would like to practice them in my life. 

Would it make a huge difference?

Songs are actually very meaningful and it can actually tear a person down. 

Or vice versa.

Or cheer up somebody's mood.

In my case, whenever I'm not happy,

I'll listen to happy songs 

which I don't find it strange as well.

Whenever I'm happy, 

I'll listen to sad songs 

which I find nobody would be like me huh?

Some songs do express my feelings out.

Korean, Japanese, English, 

Malay,Chinese, Indian songs are all the same.

They all bring the same idea 

of spreading their meaningful words to us.

But of course different songs bring different meaning.

During my past time, I will usually write.

Blog.

Phrases that is related and will 

express my feeling or my life.

Although I'm not a music person, 

that would not stop me from 

chasing my dreams of writing lyrics someday.

Although my ambition wasn't to become a musician.

So if one day you saw my name in any records, you tell me whether I've achieved my dreams. 

Love Music.

Phrases from Lyrics that Mean A lot to Me.

Every night in my dreams
I see you, I feel you
That is how I know you go on

Far across the distance
And spaces between us
You have come to show you go on

Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

Love can touch us one time
And last for a lifetime
And never let go till we're gone

Love was when I loved you
One true time I hold to
In my life we'll always go on

Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

You're here, there's nothing I fear
And I know that my heart will go on
We'll stay forever this way
You are safe in my heart

And my heart will go on and on

"  My Heart Will Go On by Celine Dion"

 It's not about the money, money, money

We don't need your money, money, money 

We just wanna make the world dance 

Forget about the price tag.

"Price Tag by Jessie J"

You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper

"  Skyscraper by Demi Lovato" 

We are young, we run free
Stay up late, we don’t sleep
Got our friends, got the night
We’ll be alright 

Throw our hands in the air
Pretty girls everywhere
Got our friends, got the night
We’ll be alright 

"  We'll be alright by Travie Mccoy"

What goes around comes back around
What goes around comes back around
I say what goes around comes back around (hey my baby)
What goes around comes back around...
There was a time
I thought, that you did everything right
No lies, no wrong
Boy I, must've been outta my mind
So when I think of the time that I almost loved you
You showed your ass and I, I saw the real you

I wanted you back
I'm so through with that
Cause honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
You turned out to be the best thing I never had
And I'm gon' always be the best thing you never had
Oh I bet it sucks to be you right now
"  Best Thing I Never Had by Beyonce"

When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing, just the way you are
And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while
Because girl you're amazing, just the way you are.
"  Just The Way You Are by Bruno Mars"


I'm just gonna run right through the rain
I'm just gonna dance right through the pain
I just wanna feel that rhythm, feel that drum
Let my heart beat louder
Let my heart speak louder than my head [head, head, head]
Heart beat louder than my head [head, head, head]
Heart speak louder
Wanna feel that rhythm, feel that drum
Let my heart beat louder
Let my heart speak louder than my head.
"  Louder by Charice" 

Last Friday night
Yeah we danced on tabletops
And we took too many shots
Think we kissed but I forgot
Last Friday night
Yeah we maxed our credit cards
And got kicked out of the bar
So we hit the boulevard

Last Friday night
We went streaking in the park
Skinny dipping in the dark
Then had a menage a trois
Last Friday night
Yeah I think we broke the law
Always say we're gonna stop-op
Whoa-oh-oah
This Friday night
Do it all again
This Friday night
Do it all again 
"  Last Friday Night by Katy Perry"